bedtime

Ok, seriously, here is how my last 45 minuets or so have gone.

7:00 read to girls while they happily munch on blueberries

7:30 girls brush teeth and get ready for bed

7:35 pray with Emily

7:38 pray with Grace

7:38:15 Emily gets up to go into bathroom

7:38:25 prayer interrupted by Emily in tears standing at Grace's door asking if I can come into her room. I say no, I'm putting Grace to bed.

7:39 Emily is now in FULL PANIC MODE screaming her head off. I am not kidding.

7:40 finish prayer with Grace and go into Emily's room where she is screaming that she has something in her throat. We go downstairs to get a glass of water. She is screaming as though she has just swallowed a mouse.

7:42 I am screaming at Emily to for the love of all things drink the water and wash down whatever is causing her so much agony.

7:43 we go upstairs to the bathroom to see if she's going to throw up where she finally tells me she thinks she's choking.

7:44 I perform mini-drama in my bathroom to show her what choking actually looks like and try to convince her that she is not indeed dying.

7:45 I lay Emily on her bed and tell her that if she can stop crying I will come back to her room in 5 minutes.

7:50 I go back into her room where she is looking at a book and looking very very exhausted. I tell her I will come back again in 10 minutes if she can keep herself staying calm.

8:00 I return, she is ok. I ask her to forgive me for yelling at her. We pray together. I told her I'd come back at 8:30 to check on her again. She said she might have her eyes closed but she will still be awake.

Now: I am heartbroken and crying, wondering what to do and begging God to help me. help her.